do you feel sometimes like you are losing it?
i keep asking myself what i am. if my memories make me who i am then i have almost vanished. there are just a few images left from my past, just a few memories that i do not let go. dead insects in boxes, they cannot find exit from my head. i have a physical proof of them. it is a long time since i started making my own pre-death photo album. every significant moment was captured. was i using the camera to distract myself in disturbing moments of my life? i was telling myself: "i am taking this picture driven by the desire of pure photography, desire to abandon composition, structure, meaning, so just the camera and moment will be the only creators of the image." but i just wanted to keep these moments forever. now i keep asking myself whether forever is still possible.